Yesterday I went to Whitehorse and then went to go visit Jakob at Purdue West Lafayette. His mom gave me a bunch of stuff to bring him. So he met me by my car and we both took his junk up to his fourth floor room. It was just a very nice visit. It was good to see him again. He really has become one of my best friends. I feel so awful for the ways I have underestimated him in the past. I would go into more detail with that but won't.

 It was so weird being back in a campus like atmosphere. It brought back some flashbacks and memories. The same thing happened when I went to Bethel. By the way...out of the two colleges I've visited I would like to compare and contrast.

Bethel:
-insanely small. I really like the smallness of it actually.
-Christian school.

Purdue WL:
-Huge
-definitely not a Christian school.

See people are trying to get me to go to Bethel (Adair, her mom, Lindsay, other people) and people are trying to get me to go to PWL (Jakob's mother, Jakob, some other random people I met there) and I really don't think I would want to go to either place. 

Now let's get back to the flashbacks/ memories. Just being in the campus atmosphere puts me in a weird place...because it makes me think of the honor academy atmosphere. And I know there is no way you can compare the two because honor academy was just insane and these two campuses are...not. So I don't know if I would be able to go away somewhere and live on campus. And I'm sick of people telling me what I should do...and where I should go! I need this year to figure that out. I don't want to make another hasty decision. I don't want to make another mistake. 

But anyway the whole point of this post was...I dont really remember. I just went off on a rant. 

I guess I just feel so different than everyone...because while there was a radical change in my life during the five days that I spent at honor academy. My thoughts have changed on a lot of things. I am defiantly more distant from people, less trusting (and I'm working on that.) So please, be patient with me!!!! I am still trying to figure out what God has for me. 

So much is happening to me.
So much that I can’t even see.
So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be.
Catch me if I should fall.
And even more so while I’m standing tall.

My head is spinning around and it’s making me dizzy.
I’m spinning around and it’s making me ill.
You don’t understand what I’m going through just to find a way to climb.
It’ll be in my own time.
It’ll be in my own time.

Whispering thoughts in all different ways.
That I’m in a daze.
My head is spinning around and it’s making me dizzy.
I’m spinning around and it’s making me ill.
You don’t understand what I’m going through just to find a way to climb.

It’ll be in my own time.
’cause it’ll be in my own time.
In my own time.
In my own time I’ll take a chance.
In my own time I’ll find romance. in my own time.

It’ll be mine.
After the clouds there’ll be the rain.
After the sun there’ll be the moon it doesn’t matter.
’cause it’ll be in my own time