7-19-07

Today Viv and I went to the Engels to watch movies. That made me happy. Open Season was great. I love it.

I've quit myspace. Again. It is horrible. It's an addiction. I honestly can't stand it. And the worst part is I still go on it to see what my friends are up to. And I keep finding things out that I do not want to know. I am just done. Completely 100% done. It's so hard when friends continue to slowly break my heart each day by their descions. And the worst part is, they don't even know they're doing it.

Other than that, I have been getting a whole lot closer to God. It's like this exsperience, this brokeness drew me nearer to Him. I like it, I like it alot.

Verse 1:
I'm so very ordinary, nothing special on my own.
Oh, I have never walked on water,
And I have never calmed a storm.
Sometimes I'm hiding away from the madness around me
Like a child who's afraid of the dark
Chorus:
But when I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles' and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call

Verse 2:
Weary brother, broken daughter,
Little widow mother, you're not alone
If you're tired and scared of the madness around you
If you can't find the strength to carry on

Bridge:
Call Him in the mornin', in the afternoon time
Late in the evenin' He'll be there
When your heart is broken,
And you feel discouraged,
You can just remember that He said 
He'll be there

CORNERSTONE

Bella, the only exciting part of the trip.

Mallory holding Bella

Peace

The view from the spot where I was sitting when I was talking to Adair on the cellphone.

Bella asleep

Laura. She had Zebras on her shirt. Ew.

Garbage Can.

Sunset. Gourgeous.

I love it when Bella laughs! She's so adorable.

Random snapshot. Ha.

 

EWWWW.

Sunset number two.

WISCONSIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Started the trip out with this lovely sign. Hooray.

We left around four on that one tuesday The middle is Rhonda, the end is Aunt Mare..

Yay Wisconsin!!!!

My room. I loved my room!

The whole group! Plus the weird guy who "loves hot moms" wow.

The middle are Chris and Debbie. I don't have a clue who the other guys are.

Chris talking to a dude I don't know

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Debbie and the dude that loves hot moms.

The women in the house. If you're wondering why I am wet....

That is why. Weird people like to spray water guns at the parade goers.

Float

I love the lake. Love. Love. Love. Love. LOVE!

And I love my book WISCONSIN

Carty loves it too.

The gorgeous house I lived in for five days.

The best fireworks show EVER!

The living room. Yeah their house reminded me of a hotel.

Ugh I love their windows!!!!!!!!!!

Cartman. Best. Dog. Ever. (In Wisconsin)

Carty and Polo

Hayward, the pup. He's actually really old. But he looks like a pup here.

Me and Mare when we "Went to town"

Actually, Rhonda came too.

Me and a statue of an old lady. I call her Aunt Flo. Ew.

Peace

Peace x2

EWWWW

Ice Cream

Marilyns future house.

Scrapbooking in Wisconsin!

AHHH! Big Bug on my jacket!

Sick.

Yep.

Yay Boat rides!

"Hey Rhonda, quit taking pictures of me!"

Me and Carty

Sunset on the boat...oooh

Normal

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Not Normal

Mare and Rhonda

Chris

Rhonda's crazy and ran a marathon on Saturday morning.

Walking to Mare's property.

Mare and Chris on her new property.

Yep, I'm ready for any bears. I'll tear them to shreds with this stick.

Haty going into hiding cause he knows I can't fight a bear off with a stick.

Rhonda and Marilyn are on the island.

Mousehouse Cheese house

THE END

I am....

Home, home, on the range! Where the deer and the cantalope play....

I've never loved home more than I do in my entire life. Remind me to never go on a trip with my youth group EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! If I talk about doing something with them slap me until I snap out of it.

I really missed Jeremy and Timmy on this trip. All these Alive Fest Memories kept coming back.

-when Christy fell down the hill

-Our hotel, the fanciest Hotel I have ever stayed at, Mariott Canton Inn

-Me and Jay spazzing over Phil Joel

-Long talks in the van during Toby Mac with Timmy, Kaylene, and Toni over our future husbands/wife

-The AMAZING Newsboys concert

-Christy being insane (but when is she not?)

- DADDY!

-Seeing Joy Williams

-Meeting an Australian singer, Sarah Kelly

-Meeting Chris Tomlin

-The beach

-The prayer and the tree and the worship

-I still remember my room number... 405

Gosh I miss those times.

Our van.

Lexi and Julie

Jeremy

Taylor and Lexi

The group

Jason and Christy

My favorite picture EVER!

Dj, Jer, and Matt

Mal

Me, Jenny

Jer & Phil Joel

Tay on our crazy ride home...

It's funny how people forget memories so easily. I'm the kind of girl who won't let go of memories for a long time. They'll just play over and over and over in my head forever.

It's funny how people change so much. And how you were close to them for so long and then all of  a sudden something has changed. I don't like it.

As I think back about all this, it all makes sense, why Jay and Christy were getting us the nicest hotel, the good food, and were taking pictures of everyone times like a billion. They were thinking of there resignation. I can't even think of that summer without crying. It was so emotional for me. Sara and Rich resigned first. They said it was because of college. It turns out that it was because Jay and Christy resigned they felt obligated to do the same. It makes me so mad that Jay or Christy weren't preparing us for it. Sure they had hinted a little but I didn't put it together. I didn't want to put it all together. It was the 2nd worst transition in my life. I don't know. I'm done. I should be sleeping.

Pictures (Catching Up)

Various Track Meets Various Campus Lifes Bible Study 5-22   MORE LATER>> I promise.

What an interesting day it has been today. I went to Great America on the unofficial gay day by mistake which was... kind of disturbing and annoying at the same time. Other than that it was a fun trip there. We stayed from 5 until close. I missed Hurricane Harbor that place is my home away from home. Although DJ Bob is no longer there. =(

He amused me. Then I saw a show and it was good. The girl from the show that I was obsessed with last fall (LAFF) was in it. But the boy wasn't. Sadness. I miss Jack. Those were good times. I was like a crazy fan girl, yeah like the girls I had always pitied. Ha.

Yeah, then we rode rides. Three to be exact. Then it was 9:00 and we left for Woodman's in the wonderful state of Wisconsin. I watched Deja Vu for the first time in two and a half weeks on the way there. That was fun.

Woodman's finally had windmill cookies. (Those are the source of it's greatness. The past two visits they were out and that made Woodman's a sad place.) So I was very ecstatic about that. It was like old times. I was really hyper and taking pictures and making friends with inatimite objects. (Stuffed cow) Yeah I guess I was getting overly hyper because this Woodman's guy walked up to me and goes,"Are you having fun yet?" That embarresed me slightly. I bet they watch for me, the crazy Wisconsin obsessed freak from Indiana and laugh at me the whole time I'm there. haha Next year for my 18th birthday party I'm getting a pinata. hahahaha.

Yeah so after we left my hyperness did not want to stop...So I wrote a six page story about a girl who lives on Mars and wants to buy a tree but the people of Mars won't have that. So she seeks her source to Danny, the dude from Hurricane Harbor that hands out floats. Danny likes Oak trees so he goes with the girl to Mars and they defeat the evil mars people that won't let the girl plant the tree. Then Danny and the girl get married. Then there's a whole bunch of madness but I can't tell you because then I'll ruin the story for those of you who actually care about my insane writings. (Mainly, Adair.)

So now I'm home. Teen Mania called me about that program I plan on attending next year. I'm afraid to call back.

I'm going to bed. I'm beat

Songs

You Are My Home

I'm stepping up

Reaching out

to become all you want me to be

I'm in the light

I'm feeling loved

You are all I need

Because when I'm sad

When I'm all alone

You're always there

You are my home

Comfort and peace

worries will cease

because you are always here

and when I feel so alone

you are my home

A Beautiful Transformation

This will be a beautiful transformation
I'll become a little wiser
Than before

This will be a wonderful renewel
A little bit closer 
than I was before

I choose you
Take my heart
Take my life
Break me apart

Show me my ways
Make me brand new
I long to be 
just like you

And It will be a beautiful transformation

Today I offer my life up to the holy one
Today I give up everything for the truth
I won't be afraid
Because it's all for you

The Lord keeps giving me songs. I have both the lyrics and the melody. I know it's from the Lord too because whenever I get songs from him I cry and I was bawling my eyes out. SO AMAZING!