I hate being scared.

and being in the center of attention

and the phrase "ignorance is bliss."

Edit: But if you think about it, ignorance is bliss. I think I would have much rather enjoyed walking around all normal thinking nothing was wrong with me than be worrying if another ciezure or fainting was going to occur. My dentist and friend, Dr. Garza said that when something is wrong she wants to know right away and she wants people to tell her everything. I don't know if I can agree with her anymore. I hate worrying about me 24/7 which is what I'm doing know. I had bad dreams all night and woke up at 4 a.m. because I couldn't sleep. It's now 5:19 a.m. and I'm already halfway done getting ready for school.

I don't understand this, God!

So Close

So close, I believe

You’re holding me now

In Your hands I belong

You’ll never let me go

I’m so secure

You’re here with me

You stay the same

Your love remains here in my heart

You gave Your life

And Your endless love

You set me free

And showed the way

And now I am found

All along you were beside me

Even when I couldn’t tell

Through the years

You showed me more of You

More of You