Radcliff Story 2006

Once there was a young lad by the name of Radcliff. He resided in the large picturesque town of Kenosha, Wisconsin. Radcliff loved Indiana with a passion. The reason why he loved it so much was because one time he went there with his father and walked into a grocery store called Ultra. Immediatly he knew the store and Indiana was his destiny.

Meanwhile one day Noelle was all somber in the store Ultra. She walked through the bakery, heartbroken because she missed the wonderful Woodman's in her beloved Kenosha, Wisconsin. Well, Radcliff was also in Ultra at that time. Unlike Noelle, he was all happy and joyus. He saw Noelle who was starting to sob sadly when she looked at the bumble bee tuna. He asked her,"Hey somber woman, why are you looking so gloomy? It's a wonderful store! Doesn't it smell terrific?"

Noelle started to respond until she looked up at him. He was the most gourgeous, beautiful, handsome boy she had ever seen. "Oh I just miss my favorite grocery store in the world." She replied sniffling.

"What are you talking about? This is the greatest grocery store in the world!" Radcliff responding excitedly.

"I disagree. Woodman's is the best," Noelle replied.

"WOODMANS?!" Radcliff was washed over with shock.

"Yes." Noelle nodded.

"I live right near a woodman's.The Kenosha Woodman's."

"No way. You're from wisconsin?"

"Unfortunately." Radcliff said.

"Why? You don't like it there?"

"No way. It's dumb. Indiana is the place to be." Radcliff said.

"You haven't lived here." Noelle said with disgust.

"Yeah well you havent lived in Wisconsin either. All they have is cows and cheese and cows. You guys have corn. I love corn."

"I hate corn. Cheese is awesome." Noelle said. Even though Radcliff was extremely good looking she also found him irritating. Just like she found her uncle Hugo who also prefered Indiana over Wisconsin annoying. How could they hate Wisconsin?

Suddenly Radcliff and Noelle's dads come running toward the two arguing strangers.

"Noelle, you'll never guess who I ran into!" Noelle's father, Jim exclaimed.

"Who?"

"This is Harry, my old friend from high school. He's an ice fisherman in Wisconsin."

"Harry's my dad!" Radcliff said.

"Is he hairy?" Noelle asked.

"A little."

"Ahhh..."

The time at the grocery store went by fast. After both Radcliff and Noelle's fathers were grocery shopping the two 16 and some odd month teens walked through the aisles of Ultra and talked about everything. Radcliff told Noelle about his pet fish, Gwenevierre back home. Noelle spoke of her cat Jack and how he likes to eat fish. Radcliff was frightened. When Radcliff had to go back to Wisconsin he started to cry. Noelle hugged him telling him she knew how he felt. They exchanged numbers when they seperated.

Yes, It was only the beginning.

So I miss xanga. I was reading all my posts from never_let_go33 or whatever the site's name was and I really miss the way I used to blog. I found a poem I wrote about Meat. Those were such good days. I was at VCC. It was sophmore year and nothing was really going wrong in my life.

I feel like I am wandering around aimlessly in circles...alone. And does anyone understands how that makes someone feel? No. So it's harder to relate to friends and people in your life and then you end up saying something or doing something that upsets the person. Well in my case that's what I've done. I feel so incredibly disconnected from the world that was mine only two months ago.  My heart aches for the way it was. And I really don't think I can take it anymore. I need something to change. I'm going to save money so I can eventually move to Wisconsin and just start a new life.

And I normally don't mind being alone. Usually I like it. But that's how I've been lately and to be honest, I'm sick of it. And that's why I am really thinking of buying a kitten next time I have enough money. Dad can just deal with it. He's got his hooker girlfriend to deal with and I don't have anyone.

I have been able to talk to Katie Engel alot though. She's become a good friend. We enjoy ranting on each other. And Emily has been great through all this. =) Adair is there too but she has school and new friends and I understand that she can't always be there to hear my rants...

But yeah, I think I'm ready to go back to VCC. I miss Christy and other people. At Faith I didn't know anyone at all. Except for Marilyn...Oh yeah! Marilyn has been great! We totally relate to each other. Except sometimes she oversteps her boundries as a mother. I have a mother. Her name is Mary Ann and I love her even though she kinda drives me nuts.

Rant over.

Yesterday I went to Whitehorse and then went to go visit Jakob at Purdue West Lafayette. His mom gave me a bunch of stuff to bring him. So he met me by my car and we both took his junk up to his fourth floor room. It was just a very nice visit. It was good to see him again. He really has become one of my best friends. I feel so awful for the ways I have underestimated him in the past. I would go into more detail with that but won't.

 It was so weird being back in a campus like atmosphere. It brought back some flashbacks and memories. The same thing happened when I went to Bethel. By the way...out of the two colleges I've visited I would like to compare and contrast.

Bethel:
-insanely small. I really like the smallness of it actually.
-Christian school.

Purdue WL:
-Huge
-definitely not a Christian school.

See people are trying to get me to go to Bethel (Adair, her mom, Lindsay, other people) and people are trying to get me to go to PWL (Jakob's mother, Jakob, some other random people I met there) and I really don't think I would want to go to either place. 

Now let's get back to the flashbacks/ memories. Just being in the campus atmosphere puts me in a weird place...because it makes me think of the honor academy atmosphere. And I know there is no way you can compare the two because honor academy was just insane and these two campuses are...not. So I don't know if I would be able to go away somewhere and live on campus. And I'm sick of people telling me what I should do...and where I should go! I need this year to figure that out. I don't want to make another hasty decision. I don't want to make another mistake. 

But anyway the whole point of this post was...I dont really remember. I just went off on a rant. 

I guess I just feel so different than everyone...because while there was a radical change in my life during the five days that I spent at honor academy. My thoughts have changed on a lot of things. I am defiantly more distant from people, less trusting (and I'm working on that.) So please, be patient with me!!!! I am still trying to figure out what God has for me. 

So much is happening to me.
So much that I can’t even see.
So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be.
Catch me if I should fall.
And even more so while I’m standing tall.

My head is spinning around and it’s making me dizzy.
I’m spinning around and it’s making me ill.
You don’t understand what I’m going through just to find a way to climb.
It’ll be in my own time.
It’ll be in my own time.

Whispering thoughts in all different ways.
That I’m in a daze.
My head is spinning around and it’s making me dizzy.
I’m spinning around and it’s making me ill.
You don’t understand what I’m going through just to find a way to climb.

It’ll be in my own time.
’cause it’ll be in my own time.
In my own time.
In my own time I’ll take a chance.
In my own time I’ll find romance. in my own time.

It’ll be mine.
After the clouds there’ll be the rain.
After the sun there’ll be the moon it doesn’t matter.
’cause it’ll be in my own time 

So today I:

1.) Got a job. Finally.

2.) Got new gym shoes. Yay.

3.) Got a new movie. Yay.

4.) Hung out with my dad. ( He told me I can come home soon. Praise God. I cannot wait. I suck at living with people.)

5.) Baby-sat for rich kids. That family was full of freaks. They had two kitchens.

It's been a long day.