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aye. I have not been able to stop writing. It's like God gave me this idea an now I can't quit at all. Wow. Weird. In a few weeks I'm gonna see my mom and viv for the first time in about five months or so. Florida...Yeah.

so I have been worried about what I'm going to do with my life after high school and I felt like I was really not 

good at anything but than a familar song comes to my mind.

"If you can use anything , Lord, you can use me. Take my hands, Lord, and my feet. Take my life, Lord, speak for me. If you can use anthing Lord , you can use me."

I don't think God cares about if you have the biggest salary and the highest education if you don't let him use you to help others and reach people with the gospel. Whatever I do, whoever God wants me to be- wether its a nurse, a waitress, or evan a writer I will most definatly do it with him in my life. And that's all I need.

Well I went to my wonderful Grandpa Joe's house today. He is so awesome. We play Rummy every time I'm at his house and every time I kick his butt at it. It's so much fun. We went to Baker's Square and in honor of Marilyn I got a slice of candy cane pie. It was my grandpa's birthday. He is 82. It's scary to see the changes in him that there has been since I was about five. He randomly forgets things, like how many cards to deal. But other than his memory he seems pretty good. He is still very much heart broken over his wife Sylvia, dying this Summer.

After that we went to Orland Park which is very much covered with snow and quite lovely. I have pictures but am much too lazy to post them right now. I'm exhausted.  Orland Park makes Portage look so boring. I love it there. Shannah, you would have passed out. We went to a mall and there was a bunch of coach stores and dooney and whats his face stores. The only good part of the mall was the massage that I got for a dollar.

I am writing a serious story right now. It's not insane. Yeah, serious. Weird.

Ana Laura is an amazing singer. I bought her cd months ago but never really listened to it until today. Ahhh...the lyrics are so good.

All this time 

All this trying to beat human nature 
It's still holding on to me 
I'm made to run 
But I was meant to be free 
But still I'm broken 
In need of someone to rescue me 

Sometimes I burn 
Sometimes I lose my way 
But when I fall 
That's not where I'll stay 
Sometimes I burn 
Sometimes I make mistakes 
I will fall 
But when I fall 
I fall into grace 

I'll let you down 
If you're looking to me 
To be perfection 
This side of eternity 
So hear me now 
Here the words that I speak 
I see redemption 
But i'm not yet complete