Updates and Stuff

went back to work today. it was kind of low in numbers. thank God.

I am sleepy.

I am kind of watching greys anatomy. George is dead. that is sad. I cried. And then I laughed. The funniest scene of Greys anatomy is also the saddest.

I work 7-6 tommorow. Fun. :)

I should really go to bed.

I am going to campus life on monday. bittersweet.

trying not to be really really sad. i dont know what is wrong with me.

Today I was driving to the Valparaiso hospital to get an x-ray.

The leaves are changing. Last year and years before that I would be happy. Not this time.

I looked at the changing leaves and they didn't bring me any joy at all.

What are you supposed to do when you find out that former friends lied to you most of the time?

People should be telling me "I told you so". I feel like an idiot.

Was it even real?

A friendship based on lies? Was it even a real friendship?

I just got out of the hospital for phnemonia two days ago. I am currently in the worst mood. I don't feel good. I am probably going to have a bunch of bills to pay soon and I really, really, really don't want to go back to work. I have a headache just thinking about it. I feel like crying. I don't know what I am doing with my life. I don't know where I am going. I know I am over working myself but I can't do anything about that. People just don't understand. I am so stressed out. I just want to go away. Far, far away. It would be nice to be a little kid again, shielded from the real world. But here I am, and I don't know what to do.