I was on my way to the choir concert listening to Avalon- (they are awesome). During a song called Adonai I asked God for what seems like the billioneth time why certain things don't go they way I had hoped and finally, I have had a catharsis: Sometimes we don't get the things that we want because it will stand in the way between our relationship with God. I am happy that some things haven't worked out for me that used to sound appealing. There is NO way I would be this passionate about God if it had worked out.

That is all.

Song of the day: Can't Live A Day by Avalon

I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but...

CHORUS
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You

I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all...

CHORUS

Oh, Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh, Jesus, I have because You give
You're everything to me

This is definatly the song of my heart right now.

P.S. I want to go to the Honor Academy more than ever right now. But if I don't get accepted or it doesn't work out, I'll take it that it's not God's will for me.

EDIT: EW! HONOR ACADEMY!

CL Pics 12-10-08

Matthew 22:37 (New International Version)
37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'

^{I don't understand how people can get through the day without God. I don't understand how they cand live with that empty, disatisfied, uneasy feeling, EVERY DAY. I dont get how people can reject God  and continued living with the empty disatisfied feeling every day. That is what I want to do with my life. I want to help people get rid of that feeling. I want to help people feel the same overwhelming peace about my life that I have. I want people to have JESUS!
There has been a dramatic change in my life and how I look at things. Everything is spiritual. There is a reason for everything and everyone. I want to be a light and a friend to the lost. I want people to see Jesus in me and live what I believe in every single way.
Something is happening. Something bigger than me, something bigger than you. I feel it in my heart and I am exspecting more.
I'm going to be writing in this more.}
Job 22:26
26 Surely then you will find delight in the Almighty
       and will lift up your face to God.
 8 I will lie down and sleep in peace,
       for you alone, O LORD,
       make me dwell in safety.

Psalm 4:8

I love you all. Good night.

P.S. The Cactus is dead. Way dead.