November 20th

I used to write songs...

I used to trust...

I used to not be so skeptical of everything

I used to be more passionate...

I dont know who I am anymore

I dont know who You are anymore.

I want to trust again

I want to grow

I want to move past all this

I want to know you

Last year someone that I used to be close with asked me what was wrong with me and what happened to the loveable kid that used to put prayer requests in for stray dogs.

I am not that kid anymore.

Too much has happened

With my parents.

With my church

With my faith

I've been through too much to stay the same as I once was.

But you know what, Im sick of this pity party.

It's been a continuous one since 2004

And Im done

Im ready to find myself again...

Only its not gonna be the same

Because everything Ive been through is only going to make me stronger

There is a change coming....

Colossians 3:13

It doesn't matter about who was right and who was wrong anymore...

It doesn't matter if you've forgiven me for things that I've done.

I am choosing to forgive. I am choosing to move past this.

We are both loved children of God and one day we will stand face to face before Him.

I want to stand before Him one day without an ounce of bitterness or resentment in my heart.

I am letting go.

I forgive you.

Colossians 3:13

Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.