Monday, November 7, 2011

Healing and Thankfulness


Three years ago I went to the Honor Academy after high school and it was only for five days but it was clear to me that things that were going on there were not right. Even though my dad already paid for two months of the internship, I made the hard decision with fervent prayer and the Lord showed me this verse when I was making that difficult decision.

Galatians 1:6-10
6 I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you to live in the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel— 7 which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. 8 But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let them be under God’s curse! 9 As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let them be under God’s curse!
 10 Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

I thank the Lord that He showed me that I was making the right decision. 
I thank the Lord that I got out safely and got home safely on that thirty hour bus ride.
And I thank Dawn and Kevin Engel for supporting me while I was there and when I decided to go home. 
And I thank all that did support my decision in leaving. 
And I thank MSNBC and the woman that started recoveringalumni.com for giving me confirmation that I made the right decision. And for helping thousands of hurting people that left Honor Academy. 
And this is probably hardest to say, I thank God for my short five day expirience at Honor Academy. It pushed me to seek the Lord more than I ever had and even though there was a lot of confusion and pain afterwards I grew so much closer to God through the expirience. I also realized through my bus ride home one of my passions in life is to help minister to homeless people. I thank God for Travis in that little bus station in Tyler, Texas. He felt blessed by me but in so many ways I was blessed by him. 
Thank you Lord, for pain & for recovery. 
Amen. 

Saturday, November 5, 2011

the ending of a cycle

we praise him. we love him. we reject him. 
we serve him. we turn to him. we run from him. 
we get off track. and we get back on. 
we worship and then we feel numb. 
I am tired of the cycle. tired of living life on emotions. 
i want to live my life around the Lord. 
and I want to surrender all. 
Im not perfect, trials are expected but the king has resurrected and hes coming again for us soon! 
this life will be a distant faded memory and soon He will be all that I see. 
amen.