Lay It Down

These are the lyrics of Jaci Velasquez's newer songs "Lay It Down". For awhile I didn't listen to Jaci because of a concert I saw her (she was being somewhat worldly. I wont explain) and the fact that she got married and like two years later she was divorced. I realize now I was wrong for looking down on her for that. Sure the Bible says divorce is wrong but I'm pretty sure Jesus wouldn't be looking down at her. He would recognize that she knew she was feeling awful for her decisions and he would love her regardless of whatever she has done. Even if she didn't want to repent he would love her. Unconditional love. 

I think thats the problem with Christians and denominations today. 1.) We're too interested in gossip and who did what with who. And who didn't get invited where. And yada yada yada. 2.) We're too busy arguing over doctrine and denominations and if prophetic dreams are for now or speaking in tongues so on and so forth. 

And you know what? Last night I watched "Four Christmases". There was a scene where the family went to church. The minister came out and the crowd went wild (I totally had Honor Academy flashbacks) but yeah in that scene I saw what the world thinks of Christians. They made them look flaky, and like obsessed with the leader guy more than God, and purely ridiculous. But is that our fault? Is it because so many of us are too much like the world Monday through Saturday and then on Sunday acting like super religious. 

I'm guilty of it too. To some degree. But no more. How can we change the world and witness to such a hopeless world when we are so much like them? 

The last thing I want to do is blend in with this world. 


Verse:
I've been lookin' till my eyes are tired of lookin'
Listenin' till my ears are numb from listenin'
Prayin' till my knees are sore from kneelin' on the bedroom floor
I know that you know that my heart is achin'
I'm running out of tears and my will is breakin'
I don't think that I can carry the burden of it anymore
All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans,
Are slowly slippin' through my folded hands

Chorus:
So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go,
I'm gonna lay it down.

Verse:
I've been walkin' through this world like I'm barely livin'
Buried in the doubt of this hole I've been diggin'
But You're pullin' me out
I'm finally breathin' in the open air
This room may be dark but I'm finally seein'
There's a new ray of hope, and now I'm believin'
That the past is past, and the future's beginning to look brighter now
Oh, cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands

Chorus:
So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
Oh what more can I do,
Cause everthing I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
You know Your love will be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go,
I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna lay it down.